“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit”. Psalms 34: 18 (NIV)
Breakups are real, so are suicidal thoughts. After my second divorce I was a total wreck. From the outside, you saw a woman going about her normal way as usual. But her inner spirit had been broken, beaten and battered by constant pain and years of emotional abuse, marital issues and abandonment. The one thing I needed the most was taken from me…the power to survive. As my world began crumbling around me, my life was riddled by depression, rejection, suicidal thoughts, fear of being alone and feelings of worthlessness. I knew I needed professional help, but ignored the signs.
Should Christians have suicidal thoughts? Christians are humans too and different events in life can cause mental challenges and spiritual pauses (setbacks). I loved God more than anything. When you’re in an emotionally and hopeless state of mind, it’s difficult to think clearly, exercise good judgement or try to make sense out of why things were happening. I became anti-social, lonely, withdrawn from family, and couldn’t see or understand God’s plan for my life. I would wear the “happy mask” of life (or some other masked attitude depending on what day it was) and pretend the world was my pearl! The mask kept me safe socially, but during the alone times, the weight of the issues began to sink my spirit deeper into a sea of confusion.
It was déjà vu all over again. I constantly dwelt on the “what-ifs”. Where was God? it seemed as though he was hiding, distant, and quiet. It was like He had vanished, just when I needed him the most.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10”
Prayer is the best spiritual tool needed to nourish the spirit when your life has been derailed by unexpected circumstances. There is so much truth in the saying “It’s not about you, it’s about God”. But this time, it WAS all about me. I was disconnected from Him, the true power source. Yes, I needed prayer, but my soul was crying out for something more. Thank God for professional counseling, God’s unconditional love and a supportive family that encouraged me to live an amazing life.
Believe it or not, the laity in some churches are not equipped professionally to counsel members or individuals experiencing depression, suicide or other life’s traumas. There are no support groups in place to assist the growing number of people who are dealing with depression and other mental issues. They just want to have a prayer, lay hands on you and send you on your merry way, without counseling or advice. Don’t get it twisted! Prayer is excellent! God can heal and he can deliver! However if you lack faith, get some additional help from somewhere. Don’t try to handle this alone. Get help, talk to a friend, or a family member. Surround yourself with people who will support you. Don’t ignore the signs.
Just so you know, God really had not vanished. He was with me all the time, waiting patiently for me to reconnect to him. Part of our calling as godly women is to unconditionally love and support those who are emotionally struggling to recover from a bad relationship or any difficult situation. He has given each of us a divine destiny and purpose. We need to tap into each other’s gifts, inspirations and experiences to spiritually contribute to this vicious cycle of broken relationships, broken homes, and broken hearts. Give someone a hug and let them know they are loved and not alone.
By Joyce Meyer
“Suicide is one of the leading causes of death in the United States. Depression can lead to suicide. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a national network of local crisis centers that provides free and confidential emotional support to people in suicidal crisis or emotional distress 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. We’re committed to improving crisis services and advancing suicide prevention by empowering individuals, advancing professional best practices, and building awareness. If you are in crisis, call the toll-free National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) a week. The service is available to anyone. All calls are confidential”. http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
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